Dues

Have I not been here long enough
Paying my dues
Been trident and true
But still so much more that I've been through
Slowly eliminating my inhibitions
A love in submission,
In this position to possibly
Losing a piece of me
To sacrifice for a greater WE.
We, he, I...working towards something heavenly
I have been drained of this energy
Made into a pawn of what my love
Consequently produced, a meek partner
Quietly conceding to your actions
Adulterous motives, hidden in your speech
Breaking what was suppose to be a stronger I
In my eyes I see the deterioration of my I
My life, my integrity, my dignity
Falling into the fragments of what our WE
Was initially suppose to be.
I discovered your lies
Written over and over,
And not to just I, to her, to she, but
Most importantly, me!
This me was meant to be protected
Sacred, respected
Never neglected, tarnished or hurt
Diminished to just the side of your affections
Just the leftovers of your passion
Wasted time on what you wanted more
Here I was still standing faithfully
Abiding to the rules of this partnership
Regarded but never genuinely cared
I still wonder what more I can do
To produce in you
That sweet thought of me
That innocence of just our WE, but
Have I not been here long enough?