I'm sensitive about my shit! [You know too much]

Fun SHIT!!! My ish! This is my move....
I sway, I stay, that's just my mood
Call me iffy, call me stable. It's just my groove
Get away, you don't me know me. This is my 'tude.
I believe, I hope I can't deny
My truth! My proof. I'm just that fly
Weighted heart, airless love. I can't withhold
All this passion, uncensored fashion. This is who I behold.
Lion's roar, ram's fight. We are the same.
Guilty pains, filtered lies. This is our way.
But I forgave, I've moved on. Please don't pull away.
My efforts, my changes. It's just what I'll do
Because this broken heart, and tired soul
Won't ever stop loving you.

Where am I? Where am I going?

Over the past couple of months the never-escaping question that keeps haunting me has been...where am I? and where am I going? It would seem as though one would know that creeping upon their 24th birthday however, I do not. All that I do know that I can confidently speak on is that I do have some slightly defined goal in mind to become a Pediatric Nurse Practioner and Nurse Case Manager. I am not however, 100% sure how it is I am to accomplish this goal. It seems as though I have missed some steps in trying to reach my degree to become a nurse and in by doing so I have led myself into complete anxiety and overwhelming stress in the workings of being a slave to my current profession as a social worker. I never would have imagined that I would be where I am now. The fear that I could possibly be caught lost in my efforts to be more than my degree is a scary thought and I am battling within myself the motivation to push through. Nonetheless with a little help from friends and family I do know the intended vision in mind is one that will be quite gratifying yet a tedious and challenging process to attain. I can no longer blame any shortcomings on those who do not understand why I have been brought here. In my own way I talk myself out of my own ability to succeed and it is scary. Instead of carrying my goals and ambitions confidently I have been searching for means of finding an easier way out. What does one do when they do not know what dto do? Get some advice.

That's my first step.

I will continue to journey on.