Where to go from here?

I want to be remembered for my hits not just my misses
I took a shot and didn't even come close
At trust, and love and hope.
Pushing out
Pulling through
Despite these doubts
I still want just you.

Fighting just to stay afloat
It's in love that I place my hope
Not in myself, not in you.
Working to be remembered for something more than my mistakes
I can't pretend to be okay
Only that I will make it through
My resiliency is in my wanting of you

We can fake it for the airways
Force our smiles til we're half dead
And nobody knows this but us.
Please roll things back cause we're not making any sense
Blame everyone but ourselves for this mess.
And besides my back is breaking from this heavy heart.
We've never seemed so far.

I'm hopelessly hopeful
You're just hopeless enough
But we never had it at all.
I'll keep fighting to turn this all around.
While you'll keep fighting to make things ok.
So where do we go from here?
Will you just give in or give up?
Because I'm not going anywhere.